We don’t go “there” –too afraid we will get caught up in our stuff, drown in the our pain, be overtaken by the emotions that threaten to sweep us away and swallow us up. But the reality is — you live “there” – all that stuff, all that pain, all those emotions spinning and coloring your world. It taints every relationship, it clouds eyes that look into the mirror distorting the image before them, it finds evidence to support lies that swirl in the recesses.

box of heart rocks 1You live “there” even though you don’t say it out loud!


But…you don’t have to live there!


The truth – you control your emotions, they don’t control you.

It is a choice you can make, a choice you must make to live free!

Do you want that??


Here, take my hand and I will lead you to the One who will hold it all in His hands for safe keeping as you work through your stuff, feel the pain, deal with the emotions, He can handle it all!

Close your eyes… imagine an object – maybe a basket, a snow globe, a drawer, a treasure chest, a diary with a key…let the Holy Spirit guide you to the perfect object and see it in your hands.

Now imagine binding up all your stuff, (the pain, the emotions, the memories) bind them up like rolling a ball of twine or folding a piece of paper or stacking neatly one on top of another, or squashing together like Play-doh in your palms, bind it all up for safe keeping and place it in the object you imagined. Give it to the Lord and let Him place it on a shelf in your heart. A contained place that is easily accessible but not bothersome. Place your “stuff” there as you pray, “Lord, I put this into your hands for safe keeping and ask that you shelf this so I can be physically and emotionally present with all those who cross my path today!”

This is you taking control of your stuff.

It cannot control you, you control it!

It can be purposefully stored away, not stuffed, denied of pushed down but rather placed until you and the Lord decide to open, revisit, and deal with it a little at a time until one day you realize your basket, globe, drawer or chest (whatever the object) is empty and your heart is healed!

birth storiesI have a precious friend who is waiting…she is waiting for the arrival of her first born, her son.  She is 37 weeks and she is ready…the room is prepared, the diapers have been bought, shower gifts have been opened, washed and carefully stored away, his bed is made, her arms are ready to hold this little miracle that God has gifted her with!  It is a fun yet frustrating time..those last few weeks of waiting…the waiting of something so waited for, for something so longed for, for something so prayed for.

 She is ready today!

I feel much like this new mom-to-be!  I have been laboring, I have been preparing, I have been anticipating and anxiously awaiting arrival of this God-breathed project God has placed in my heart!  Several months ago I began the work of creating and growing this idea.  God divinely knitted several people along my path to help me bring this idea to life. And we have worked hard!  We have labored!  We are feeling the birth pains as the anticipated date of arrival draws closer!  And just like my new mom-to-be friend, I can NOT wait to hold “her” – my project in my arms.

What is it?  This project?

I am so glad you asked…it is a beautlful book of dreamy watercolor, intimate stories of moments shared in the presence of the King of kings and audio downloads to guide you into your own experience with Him. It’s a devotional with 52 opportunities to experience Jesus. To come to know Him in an intimiate, personal way.  My prayer for the women who will labor through the 52 weeks with me is that at the end of it they will know Jesus in a way they didn’t know was even possible and they will know that they are loved and will love themselves!

What a sweet thing He has allowed me to birth!

I can’t wait to hold it in my arms and give it to others to find the sacred secrets of His love for them!

a reflection of GodWe have been learning about heaven and listening to messages with heaven as the focus and it has been amazing and, for some reason, easily believable!

I say that because I tend to be a skeptic!  I wish I wasn’t but it is just how I am wired. I like to test things, I like to find more evidence to support things.  I don’t just like it, I need those things to help me believe!  One of my most favorite stories in the Bible is about the man who asks Jesus to heal his son and Jesus says, “Do you believe?” and the man responds, “Yes, and bless my unbelief!”  –that’s me!!!  Bless my unbelief Lord, help to believe more, help me to believe easily, help me to believe!!  And He is!  He is just gracious like that – “Ask and you shall receive,” He says!

So back to heaven…so heaven is described as the most beautiful and most fun place imaginable – actually even more that we can imagine — It is better than we could ever imagine!!  It has been awesome to imagine it and get excited about this REAL place, our true home!

This morning I was chatting with our three youngest girls and asked them, “So why do you think heaven is beautiful and fun?”  They had lots of answers to my question but the most simple and truest answer is this — because that is who God is!

He is beautiful and He is fun!  Heaven is a reflection of Him!